I submerge myself in the ocean of books
Seeking a trace of comfort.
My mind empty as usual,
To nobody I could confess my sorrow.
How eager I am to be educated
How eager I am to be endowed with wisdom.
The harder I try
The stupider I feel.
The meticulous makeup fails to conceal the ignorance
But reveals the humiliating truth.
The eyelashes try to bury the superficial self
Yet authenticity prevails.
I wish I did better than merely smiling
I wish I knew what the hell I have been doing.
I wish I were more than a china doll
Whose tongue got stuck in its jaw.
